Some Days There's Sobbing

Wednesday, 26 October 2011
I haven't cried for more than a month. Yesterday I sobbed my eyes out like a little girl. The circumstances that caused the break down are strange and now seem somewhat humorous. My day yesterday went something like this:

400am - wake up and start worrying about everything in my life that isn't going well or has the potential to fail.
630am - fall back asleep
800am - wake up to cat purring loudly in my face
930am - campus, work on pecha-kucha presentation for research class
1100am - hour of group tutoring for stats midterm with Dr. K
1215pm - lunch for fellowship students with the graduate program (awesome experience and prestigious!)
130pm - meeting with Dr. B to discuss changing research proposal, change granted
145pm - create and type up major writing assignment for JEM 200 Media Writing course
210pm - research class 610, ready to give presentation
330pm - give presentation (Japanese style, 20 slides, 20 seconds spent on each slide), good feedback from cohorts and Dr. W
455pm - hand out writing assignment to students, give news quiz, collect latest assignment and send students off to conduct news interviews
530pm - rush to Knoxville City Court, study for stats midterm while waiting to show insurance card and ask for judicial relief on my "following too closely" citation
710pm - called to stand
713pm - judge politely listens and says "but this insurance card only proves you have been insured since 10/17."
714pm - case reset for one week
715pm - walk to car cursing State Farm the entire time for sending me a card that is new again when I specifically said I needed the one that showed I had insurance when the wreck happened
716pm - curse myself for not looking at the card before sitting in court for almost two hours
717pm - get into my car and burst into tears
719pm - drive sobbing to study spot and get back to statistics
720pm - realize I'm just tired and bravely face the horrid headache that comes after a crying fit
900pm - stop studying and meet friend M for a beer
1000pm - talk to mom and feel a little better about life
1020pm - start studying again

Today will be better and I have a good feeling about the exam (notice the positive vibe)!


Jessica Collins said...

I had a day like this when I was just an undergraduate. I was working full-time and going to school full-time and trying to manage my Magna Cum Laude status, my workout schedule, and my relationships at the same time. Broke down right in front of a professor who wanted me to fit in "more." I was not tired. We're all applauding you for all the work you're doing!

Teri's Blog said...

I totally do the "call Mom and feel a little better about life" all the time!

Cincychili said...

Hang in there, Denae. Things will get better. a great man once said
"You may not realize it when it happens, but a kick in the teeth may be the best thing in the world for you"